I am doing this to force myself to write something. I will write in full sentences. The sentences will be disparate.
Why did i have to travel? I just had to force myself to do something different. Else i would have just lazed around this time in Stockholm.
During the day, several times i felt why do i do this. Then there were also moments when i felt good. Looking out the window from the airplane at the mountains. Traveling during the day felt nice. It was a good choice. Just as i stepped out of the bus at Milan central station. It felt good. Warm. I even felt like i might extend this trip. The halal place was a great find. Quick choice too. Well done there. The gelato after was a bit unnecessary. Especially the second scoop. Water would have been better instead. The walk to the Airbnb in the sun felt long and tiring. This is when the feeling of why this came in. The Airbnb was ordinary. The shopping district was mostly closed. The city in general quiet. Don’t know if it was Sunday, summer or corona. All three perhaps. Duomo was like a checkbox item. The square felt familiar. The cathedral is impressive of course. The girl singing there added something to the atmosphere and made me feel some good sensations.
My energy was all drained out by Duomo around 5. I wasn’t keen on Como. Somehow i went anyway. Feels good to have visited. Definitely worth a longer visit later, deeper in the Bellagio lake region. And hopefully in a more romantic capacity than masturdating.
I was completely drained on the train ride back from Como. The breeze afterwards picked things up. I bought the ticket to Florence, a long train ride instead of a short expensive one. Perhaps making a decision, again a quick one on the ticket console was part of the relief and good feeling. I like quick decisions, especially small ones. I need to practice doing that more often.
While watching the basketball game on the way back with a breeze and the twilight hues in the sky with the cityscape in the backgroud, i felt it’s a worthy note to self that a day can pick up even when in moments it feels like that it’s a done deal.
